OMG OMG OMG OMG IT’S A CORGI WITH A TAIL OMG OMG OMG OMG AND IT WAGS OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!
have u never seen one before omg theyre the best
nonbinary people who are okay with gendered pronouns/names are still nonbinary and if a nonbinary person tells you they’re okay with gendered pronouns then it’s really not your place to say that their gender identity is less valid because of that, even if you yourself are nonbinary. Gender is different for everyone and there’s no “valid way” to be a certain gender the only validation you need is your own.
More Baka couple makoharu doodles from EP9 ^^
First EP9 comic here ^^
So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! > w <
I’m supposed to take my meds at 11am. I just took them now. At 5:50pm.
I’m snappy. I’m bitter. I’m crying. I’m shaking. I don’t know what’s going on. Everything is warped.
So I’m just going to stop responding to everyone for a while till my meds kick in.
Okay. Okay. Okay. Bye.
Anything ocean scented…
I also love pomegranate stuff. Uhm. Idk. I use vegan things. Mango is good too. Anything fruity…no flowers. Ugh. I hate flower scents.
But ocean scent is my favourite.
I’m sorry but I get really hurt when someone implies I’m not doing anything to try to get help.
I mean…schizophrenia destroyed my fucking life. And now I’m doing DAMN well compared to how I was when I first got diagnosed. I mean, minus my panic disorder getting worse and my chronic depression coming back, I’ve been making GREAT progress.
But…now I’m setback. Because of fucking Abilify, I think. Evil medication…I can’t…evil. I can’t do it. Not to mention this whole having “alters”/personas/others thing is REALLY unnerving. And I feel alone and when people tell me they care it is VERY hard to believe. Especially right now.
I don’t know what I’m saying anymore
I’m just . .gonna stop before I lose my english entirely. I just lost it.
REJECTING HELP!? Do you KNOW how much work I am doing to get better!?!?!! HOW MUCH!? GOING TO THERAPY WITH A PSYCHOLOGIST ONCE A WEEK THAT I CAN’T AFFORD, WORKING OUT SEEING A PSYCHIATRIST THAT I CAN’T AFFORD BUT NEED, TAKING MEDICATIONS ALL DAY EVERY DAY…MAKING LISTS AND TALKING TO MY FRIENDS AND MASTER WHEN I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO KILL MYSELF…CONFIDING IN PEOPLE. EVEN GOING AS FAR AS TO TELL MY MOTHER EVERYTHING BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT IS GOING TO GET ME THE RIGHT MEDS. I AM EXHAUSTED FROM ALL THE WORK I’VE BEEN DOING TO GET BETTER AND GET HELP. UTTERLY EXHAUSTED. SO DON’T YOU DARE FUCKING TRY TO TELL ME I’M REJECTING HELP.
I am trying so hard to get help but I have had a rough fucking few days…and it keeps getting rougher and I can’t help it if it all feels like lies and nothing feels right and I’m a fucking mess and I can’t handle anything and I just want to cry and I feel like such a failure that I can’t even breathe sometimes. I CAN’T HELP THE TRUTH OF THINGS.
Yeah people try to help…and I appreciate it. I do. And I NEED it. More than ANYTHING right now…
But if people can’t handle me being honest about things and me getting towards my worst…then they don’t deserve to be in my life anyways. That sounds cruel but it’s the truth.
Okay. I’m being harsh. I’m hurt, I’m belittled, I’m in so much pain I just want to kill myself. But I won’t. I’m waiting for this damn geodon script…because Abilify is evil and it is making my life hell and I can’t escape it…I can’t escape it. Oh god.
Yeah. People are trying to help me. I’ve already lost tons of people because I “push people away” with my truths and honesty. So…fuck it. I don’t know. If people can’t handle my true thoughts and honesty, then I don’t want them in my life anyways.
I’m so hurt right now that nothing seems to matter anymore. Nothing.
Am I not allowed to have a rough as fuck week where I cut myself to shreds and want to OD every night? Am I not allowed to have a month like that? Where I’m depressed to a point I can’t fathom into words?
I need help. I do. And I’m GETTING that help. I am. I’m working SO HARD to do so but I feel like the biggest failure in the entire world for SO MANY REASONS. Reasons I can’t ignore. Reasons that FAR outweigh the reasons I’m “not” a failure.
I’m sorry I’m not good enough for you anon but I’m not doing very well, okay? So yeah I’m going to be pushing some people away even when I NEED their help and kind words. Yes, I will lose some people. But that is life. And I can’t help it. I CAN’T HELP IT. I CAN’T HELP ANY OF THIS.
So I’m not sorry.
That video of me crying like a little bitch and zoned out in a slight pre-episode? That was to two people. Tawni and Tiffy.
I don’t understand the question because the question is not accurate.
I really need to stop going through my iPod and finding songs that are so accurate with certain people it hurts.