All my anger has subsided…but now all that’s left is morbid depression eating away at every inch of my body from the inside out… gnawing to set the suicidal tendencies free to roam in my mind and induce stupidity into my actions…

Someone distract me before I …I go insane… .

I won’t even remember this.
I’m so fucked up right now it’s not even funny… …no one has any idea… . …

I’m depressed as fuck and trying pretty hard not to cut myself.
I don’t want to. I don’t want to hurt myself.
I love Tiffy too much to hurt myself anymore… .but I’m so impulsive I don’t know if I can hold on much longer.
I want to take more pain killers….but I need to save them………..but I’m on the verge of caving………………….and I don’t know if it would kill me or not if I took more because I have a fucking LOT in my system right now…close to a lethal dose…

But I feel like I need it… like I need to take more and then I’ll feel okay. Like I need to take more to feel okay. Fuck, I just want to cry… . . I feel terrible emotionally …

Talk to me… . ?
I just…idk.
I’m trying to distract myself… .