Trying to take my mind off the fact that my body DESPERATELY needs drugs. ..

All I gotta do is last through visiting with my uncle John and conversing with him and a few cousins and my grandparents for a couple hours, maybe fake eating a little bit so they’ll be satisfied, and then I can come home and fucking TRIP.

Gotta leave at 3am tomorrow for the airport. Uggggh. And I didn’t sleep at all last night…might not sleep tonight either coz I’m gonna be tripping all night. Might actually still be tripping when I get to the airport. Oh god, I hope I’m still tripping when I’m on the plane!! That’d be so fucking fun!!!! Ahahah. c:

Anyways, yes, SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME BEFORE I FUCKING GO INSANE!!!! :/ Just for a little bit. D: